Goodbye.

Flashbacks enter through my mind,
so many questions with no answer i could find,
you left me without saying anything,
just left me hanging, crying and wondering.

What have i done to deserve this shit??
i thought our love would be infinite,
am i that easy to forget?!
oh well, i assure you one day youll regret it !

Dont go near me, i dont need you
You dont need to explain, stop it can you?!
i dont wanna hear your stupid excuses,
im no longer a fool, i've came up to my senses !

i dont wanna try anymore,
scared to get hurt just like before..
i'll no longer listen to another lie,
this time, i'll rather say goodbye.

Broken, again ;(

Never thought it would be this hard,
its like my heart was ripped apart,
Bittersweet memories left on my heart,
i want to forget you but how could i start?

They say to move on is the right thing to do,
because you already found someone new,
inside my mind i want to,
but in my heart i doubt if i could do.

think you're better off without me,
you're already settled with another lady,
see how unfair life can be ?!
you've already moved on while i still wait for you patiently.

i wonder if you still remember,
those times when we were still together,
those I love you's and I miss you's that we shared,
Oh! how i miss the way you cared!

But if this is the end of our story,
then maybe i should learn to be happy,
even though you aren't anymore with me,
even if it really hurts so deeply.

It's okay, i will be fine.
Don't worry about this heart of mine,
i know i could move on and cease to cry,
maybe not now but at the right time.

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Ui naa ko'y stalker. Haha peace yo! ;P
You know who you are!

#willdeleteposts.

She loved you..

But you never realized that until it was too late, the words you told her were just lies, you took her for granted and took advantage of her heart, now she’s hurt, she wonders how you could treat her the way you did when all she did was love you? She questions everything you say because all you did was lie to her, you abused her trust and now it’s gone… Your Apologies mean nothing to her now because you say them so often only to hurt her again later on. Now you have nothing, she decided to leave because you treated her wrong and she got tired of the pain, tired of being used, tired of being your option..

:(

Kahit minalas ako ngayong araw, OKAY lang.
Kahit badtrip ako ngayon, OKAY lang.
Kahit malungkot ako, OKAY lang.
Kahit hindi ka na nagtetext, OKAY lang.
Kahit hindi ka na nagpaparamdam, OKAY lang.
Kahit namimiss na kita, OKAY lang.
Kahit wala ka nang pakialam sa akin, OKAY lang.
Kahit hindi mo na ako mahal, OKAY lang.
Kahit nasasaktan na ako, OKAY lang.
Kahit brokenhearted ako ngayon, OKAY lang.
Kahit gusto ko nang sumuko, OKAY lang.
Kahit kinalimutan mo na ako, OKAY lang.
Kahit hindi ako talagang okay, OKAY lang.


:) I’ll just smile and pretend na okay lang ako, kahit deep inside angsakit na T_T

What happened to us?

   No communication. Kahit tawag o text man lang wala akong natanggap. Kahit isang mention lang sa twitter wala. Kahit isang PM lang sa Facebook… wala talaga eh. Ayaw talaga nyang magparamdam..
   Paulit-ulit na lang na ganito. Itetext ko sya pero di naman nagrereply. Pinatatamaan ko sya sa mga gm at status ko pero no reaction parin. In-unfriend ko nga sya facebook eh. Kasi angsakit! Alam mo yung feeling na makita ang mga pictures nya together with his friend.. angsakit. Tangina. Di ko mapigilan ang selos.
   Minsan naiisip ko, mahal ba talaga nya ako? Pano kung laro laro lang pala ang lahat na to para sa kanya? Pano kung isang araw sabihin nya na lang bigla “Ayy sinabi ko ba talagang mahal kita? Joke lang yun noh, naniwala ka naman.” Pota. Pag nangyari yun, ewan ko lang. May mapapatay ako. hahaha. Dejokelang. Bahala sya noh. Hindi lang naman sya ang lalaki sa mundo. Andami pang nakapila. Pero kasi.. sa kanila, sya lang ang gusto ko. Sya lang ang minahal ko ng ganito..
   Minsan, gusto ko na sanang sumuko. Kaso di ko alam kung alin ang tamang gagawin. Anghirap kasi. Urggh! Bakit ba naman kasi siya nagbago??? Angsweet nya noon eh. Lalo na nung di pa kami. He never failed to make me smile. Pero ngayon? Ewan. Nagmumukha akong tanga, umaasa parin sa kanya. 
   Pero siguro nga hindi naman talaga sya nagbago. Baka nga nag expect lang talaga ako nang masyado. Pero hindi naman masamang masaktan diba? Hindi nya ako pinapansin eh. Sa tingin mo dapat ikasaya ko yun?! Bilang babae, ayoko ng relasyong masyadong PDA, pero at least man lang sana hindi sya mahiyang ipakita ako sa ibang mga tao. Sana hindi sya mahiyang sabihin na ako ang girlfriend niya. Kung mahal nya talaga ako, ipaglaban nya ako. Hindi yung ganito. Nakaka’BV lang tong relasyong to eh!~

;]

   She's a dreamer, a hopeless romantic, a reality-escapist. She believes in fairytales. She believes that someday she would have her own lovestory, a story unlike Cinderella's or Snow White's. A story with its own happy ending. She believes that there's a guy who's right for her, someone who would love her despite the fact that she's imperfect, someone who would accept her flaws.. She believes in shooting stars and 11:11 wishes. She's just an ordinary girl existing in this big complicated world, wishing and hoping for a little happiness in her life, craving for that love that she never felt, thirsting for care from the person she loves so much but no assurance if he loves her back. She's not expecting a perfect life. she just wants a life which is simple yet happy, together with that guy. <3