im thankful that you have given me life, that i have my friends and my family. Im thankful because i am able to go to school, and to eat three times a day. i know that compared to other people, im much more fortunate.
God, im sorry if i give problems to my parents. Sorry if sometimes i break the trust of other people. Im sorry if im too rude sometimes. im sorry if sometimes i feel discontented with the things that i have.. im sorry God for all the mistakes that i've did these past few days..
But you know what God, im already tired. tired of the challenges you give me, tired of everything in my life. It feels like i've done nothing good. It feels like im just nothing to everyone.
i always paint a smile on my face. i always laugh out loud infront of many people.. but how long should i pretend that im happy? how long should i pretend that im okay? that nothing's bothering me? that i dont have any problem?
im getting too tired, God. You're the only one who knows how it badly hurts me.
God, if these problems are only a test of my faith on you, please give me enough courage and strength to overcome them...