hate this feeling.. :(

They think that i am happy,
seeing me smile and laugh,
they're unaware that i feel lonely,
i feel like im not enough.

Sometimes i feel,
like no one understands me anymore,
the scars in my heart still haven't healed,
im left alone uncertain and unsure.

They tell me to stay strong,
but if they could just see in my perspective,
they would realize that everything's wrong,
in this kind of life i live.

im tired of living up to people's expectation,
think im just nothing,
i am only an option,
never would be someone's everything.

the smile that i wear everyday,
is only a mirage to fool others,
for them to think that i am happy,
but the truth is, im not really.

some things are hurting me,
draining me physically and mentally,
something's bothering me lately,
ending me up crying silently.

i really dont know if im worthy,
or am i only a sort of trashy?
someone that can be dumped anytime,
can be thrown away when you changed your mind.

i feel devastated and incomplete,
seems like my world is breaking underneath my feet,
im just a kid searching for genuine happiness,
i need someone to love me so intense.