She lays in bed at night,
with her teddy bear on her side,
every night she hugs it tight,
as she cries the emotions she feel inside.
She's still contemplating her thoughts,
though its already 2 o clock in the dawn,
the pain she feels is like a knife that cuts,
deeper and deeper through an already open wound.
Around her family and peers,
she puts on a smile on her face,
She tries to stop the tears,
she's been doing so for many days.
But behind close doors,
she's an emotional wreck,
can not stop the tears that pours,
neither can she put on that smile that she fake.
She wants to break loose from this pain,
but she dont quite know how,
these thoughts are turning her insane,
all she needs is to be alone right now.
She stands there watching with tears in her eyes,
as her world slowly begins to crumble beneath her feet.
facing the mirror she wear a smile as disguise,
not to show others that she feels shit.
She wishes things could've turned out differently,
not like what it is now,
she feels lost and empty,
wanting to be happy but dont know how.
In the morning nothing had changed,
she still wear that fake smile,
the people around doesnt know its just a mirage,
theyre unaware that she cries once in a while.
Theyre oblivious to the pain she feel inside,
doesnt know that she's hurt,
this is her life,
still figuring out whats her worth.