I give up.

Ive had a lot of insecurities,
i've experienced a lot of pain,
I've been through many struggles,
God's been testing my faith  over and over again.

Though i know that i am strong,
but not as strong as you think,
There's this part of me that badly hurts,
my life seems to shrink.

Im maybe too emotional,
but you dont know how it feels,
Its like im shot a million times,
and there's no way to be healed.

Isnt it ironic,
how i hate my own life,
while some other people,
are struggling not to die.

Its not that easy,
to live in this fucked up world,
where people keep on making stories,
and others believe easily on what they heard.

Im too vulnerable,
to God's tests on me.
I think i should give up.
Im tired of my fucked up life already.