Sorrow, pain, it’s all I feel.
Wounds in my heart, it just wouldn’t heal,
I’m tired of crying, tired of keeping these feelings inside,
I feel hopeless, been thinking of committing suicide.
I know it’s wrong, but I can’t take it anymore,
Fuck these thoughts; it leaves me so unsure,
I’m not as strong as you think, I’m so weak and pathetic,
Tired of proving myself, tired of listening to all your critics.
Life’s been so tough for a little girl like me,
Yes, I smile everyday but it doesn’t mean I’m not hurting.
I fell to the trap of pretending to be happy,
But I know I’m not, honestly, I feel lonely.
Some people think that I’m strong,
But no they’re all wrong,
Because inside I seem to be fragile,
There's sadness inside of me that i hide behind my smile.
I don’t want to explain myself more,
Because it would only be useless.
How could you understand me if I can’t even understand myself,
My life’s been so meaningless.
You can say that I’m overacting; you may say anything against me,
Judge me the way you see me, I’ll accept it because that’s reality.
I may tell you that I’m not affected; I may tell you that I’m not hurting.
But only God knows what I feel, He’s the only one who knows everything.
I’ve come to the point where nothing matters anymore,
And things I used to care about aren’t worth fighting for.
It’s over, I’m gonna wipe my tears,
I’m sorry for killing my own life, but I did this with no fears.
but im not going to kill myself. Suicide's been on my mind, but i wont do it. k? :)
i still believe in God, and i know these problems have an end. and someday, im gonna be happy. :))
and di diay sya suicide letter.. suicide poem diay ! lol =)