To my ex-bestfriend

We lost our friendship –

      we aren’t the same anymore,

      we don’t do things the same way as before.

Because just like that,

      you threw away all the memories we had.

I cried a river when you left

      but you didn’t even knew a thing about it

      you didn’t care for me even a bit.

I saw you with your new best friend

      and I saw that you have changed.

      You aren’t as conservative as before,

       you aren’t the shy type anymore.

       but despite of this,

       I saw a big smile on your face.

You changed a lot.

      — and I hope you’re happy now.

      Wherever you will go,

       I’ll just stay in the corner looking at you.

You may not know that I am there,

       but I promise I will always care.

Regrets (sonnet)

To reminisce is all that I could do,

‘Cause memories are all that’s left with me,

I wonder if you still think of me too,

The way I think of you every day.

How hard it was to keep remembering,

When memory only brings too much pain,

But I’d rather suffer ‘cause of thinking,

If in that way I can get you back ‘gain.

I tried to erase you, tried to forget,

But no matter how I try to let go,

I’m still not over you, now I regret,

‘Cause babe I loved you but I failed to show.

I’m sorry if I allowed us to part,

But remember, you’re always in my heart.

Confessions 101

It’s funny how I tell her to be strong,

when even I myself am having a hard time holding on.

It’s funny how I tell her to be contented with her life,

when I myself ain’t even happy with mine.

It’s funny how I tell her that it’s better to smile when problems come,

when even I myself cry every night to sleep.

It’s funny how I could fool people with my smile,

when all I really do is lock myself inside my room and cry.

Strong Enough. (sonnet)

Life is intricate having twists and turns,

Sometimes I’m up but most often I’m down.

At times I get some heartache, wounds and burns,

But I would never let myself get drown.

Though at times I cry and my world turns grey,

And even though I go through hurt and pain,

Nothing can stop me nor hinder my way,

For God gives me strength to stand up again.

Life often seem as a difficult trial,

My tears fall and my heart breaks easily

But still I hold on and put on a smile,

Because I know God is just testing me.

Knowing that God is with me all along,

With determination I stand up strong.

Moving On (sonnet)

I noticed the cool breeze touching my face
as I reminisced the mem’ries we shared,
It’s been a while since we had parted ways,
Oh, how I missed those days when you still cared!

I just realized that it was not right,
when I decided to let you go ‘way,
I should have held you in my arms so tight,
gave you my love in a most special way…

Since that day when I was left with nothing,
felt like my world would tremble any hour,
what do I wish, what am I expecting?
You’re never going back; I’ve got no power…

So maybe the right thing for me to do
is to learn to live my life without you…

Just another post

You asked me for help and I was there,
you were crying so I showed you care.
I did all I can to make you happy,
but it isn't enough; that's what I see.
You only talk to me when you need me,
All those things were merely fantasy.
But thanks anyways for breaking my heart,
thanks for tearing me apart.
I may have fallen with your lies,
but now I am better: everything you desire.
But wait man, you can't have me anymore,
for I ain't the same IVY as before.